Hello October!

A lot of things had happened. Not in the best way but they have made me realise a lot of things. About myself and about what I need to do, what is good for me.

I couldn’t write any update for the last month because life just got so busy, a lot of stress. At the moment, I’m calm in mind which is the most important thing. I still need to sort out other things which will be the adventure for the next chapter. But I’m ready for it – I think.

Lately I’ve felt so much close to everything connected to home. Anything that is connected to Vietnam, I’d absorb that in me. I think it is because I have failed a lot of things. What would come up first thing in your mind? Anything that brings comfort and just makes you feel like you don’t have to care about anything at all in the world. That is home.

Do I want to just give up everything and go home? Of course, that’s in my mind every day. But life is not that easy to just leave everything then go away. “What doesn’t kill you make you stronger” – this is very true. I used to be so emotional. I’d literally cry over everything but now I feel like sometimes I’d have some tears but not sob like how I used to be. And you know what? Sadness will go. I just need to let that out, and then move on to the next thing that I want to do. I need to leave all the negatives behind and embrace what the future is holding for me, now that I can kind of see how that would look like. There will be a lot of challenges but it’s also a lesson for me to know what is my limit.

So

October, be good to me please.