Another week is passing.

A lot has happened in a such small period of time,

I think because I’ve been trying to do so many things at once. And that’s why the pace is like that.

A problem came up. A financial problem. It’s from home.

I’m glad that I was able to sort it out straight way in terms of finding a solution for now. I feel strongly about my responsibility and what needs to be done about it.

Started when I was maybe 12-13, my mum was working probably 10+ hours a day, even weekends. I remember the time when I was in school, I barely saw her around because she was working way too much. But you know what, she would still try and supervise me with home-works. She’d get home at 7pm and then back up again at 5am to travel 2 hours to the factory that was on the outskirt of Hanoi. And that’s one way, so 4 hours travelling there and working. Sometimes she had to stay at the factory overnight because it would have been too exhausting for her to go back home and rest. And a lot of dramas happened in this time period. And somehow she still managed to get through everything and tick all the boxes that she had set out for herself and her family.

At the time, I was still little. I didn’t have much emotions about it. I didn’t really understand it. I was a child, care-free and just kept doing what a child is supposed to be doing – learning, eating and sleeping.

And then time flies.

I told mum: “I want to study abroad”. We were a normal middle-class family, but she worked hard. And I mean HARD for it.

I don’t know how she did it. But she did.

She managed to work and earn money enough so that I could go study abroad. Throughout the entire 12 years in the UK. My family had had to support me financially. And now, I’m able to work and earn money to support myself.

So, when I hear there is a financial problem at home, the situation is both my parents are retired, they are surviving on their pensions. My brother and my sister-in-law are having a baby, which is such an exciting thing to look forward to. They have some remaining debts (I know how big they are but don’t want to specify it here) that they are still trying to pay. And to me, I’m like, those debts are mine. My family acquired those debts so that I could be where I am today. And both of my parents got high blood pressure, I DO NOT want them to take anymore stress at their age. I just want them to live stress-free and I will do EVERYTHING and ANYTHING that it’d take me in order to sort this out. Because I can’t afford to lose them when I haven’t achieved the goals that I have set out for them and for myself.

That’s why I am working on different projects where I can earn money on the side of my day job, I need to action everything and now is the time. I need to be assertive and focused. I believe in myself and I believe I can sort this out.

I hope for a better future. I hope for a better future everyday. And I just want some day I can have everything that I have always wanted and envisioned – which is to be a good child that my parents have spent their whole life to give the best and tried everything they could. I love you mum, dad, bro and sis, and the my little nephew who is coming into this world in November. I love you and you mean absolutely everything to me.