I’ve been rewatching this film “Good Boys” and it is sooooooo funny. It’s available on Netflix. It’s basically about this group of 6th graders who are trying to grow up. The film was made years ago but I still find it so funny after many many times watching it.

I think why I like it so much is because it’s hilarious and so lighthearted. In the most nostalgic way. Not that I have experienced everything these boys went through but just some parts of it. I can still relate to everything to a certain extent though.

I always know that I have a habit of putting things on repeat. Like music, films, audios etc.

I’m not sure if I’m looking for comfortability or trying to analysing them again and again and again. Maybe both.

Anyway, I enjoy that so does it matter?

But I guess I enjoy the analysing aspect of it where I start to pick up things that I find relevant to me.

At the end of the film, Lucas was told by his parents that people change and as time goes on, they need to grow apart. They might be the same people when they met but when you have a different purpose later in life, it’s better to grow apart. Like the story about Lucas’ hermit crab. It grows bigger and needs a bigger shell. So it has to leave his own shell to go find a new shell that would fit him. Eventually he died. Obviously this is based on the film so fuck knows what actually happened to the crab. It might have never existed.

So here is where I find this story relevant to what’s going on in my mind. We all change and at some point in life, we might chase after something different. Let’s say you are a group of 2 or more. It could be romantically, friendships or work colleagues. Certain relationships will die if it is no longer aligned with what you’re heading towards.

You might be sad. You might feel depressed.

But you have to accept it and move on. Because that is life.

You can either continue to save that relationship. It’s totally your choice. But you also have to accept the outcome that comes after. It can be nice, or it can be horribly wrong. But it is your choice. Once you commit to pursuing something, you got to accept that one day, you might be disappointed. I understand that whenever this kind of situation happens, the first and fore-most common behaviour as a human-being is blaming.

Because it makes us feel better.

We’re built that way. That is how our brains work. And it makes us human. We just need to adjust it after and try with more constant self-reflection if possible.

I always know this. I remember talking to my mum the last time I went to see my family. I said the exact same thing to my mum. And I could read her face. It was the “yes, that is very true” face. Because she paused for like less than a second if that makes sense.

I think a lot of people I know don’t understand what I do.

When I did my doctorate work, I spent a lot of time looking at researches about human behaviours. That’s why my dissertation is “the effect of psychological biases on individual investments”. I had to link it to what I have gone through in uni which is finance and investments. But I really enjoyed it. This also takes me back to the day I did my viva – the oral exam where I had to defend my 60,000 word project. I even cried when the examiners said that my defence was strong and one of the best that they have examined. How could I not cry? I even took this to job interviews but it didn’t really help me because I think recruiters would probably think I’m overqualified for the job. Not that I’m being an egotistical twat, but it’s true. And that’s what made it so hard for me to find a job.

But I’m forever thankful for that journey. It made me find myself and understand what I’m passionate about, which led to everything I do now and enjoy – that is to work with people. How to create better things for them and provide support within my power.

But it’s hard work. I can’t lie.

But I love it. I wouldn’t trade it for anything else as a career.

And as time goes on and after speaking a lot of people, new ideas and aspirations came. Hence, bigger dreams and I find myself to be a lot more ambitious than how I used to be. It is a good thing, isn’t it?

But anyway, I’m just starting life. There are many years ahead (hopefully lol). So I’m learning as I go and I am taking everything I can on this journey. So good luck to me!

Finally, one last thing and this is going to be very lame. In the movie “Good Boys”, the writer made a mistake where Max’ dad mentioned a sister to Max. But in the movie, she doesn’t appear or gets mentioned at any other time. I thought this was an “over-informational” line. This could be changed to basically there wasn’t any sister. But the movie is still very good. I don’t think many people pay attention to that but it’s just my analytical mind screaming that something was wrong.